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I am glad to find such supportive women on this site. I've just been scanning the net to see if anyone has just been through what I have.
I guess I need to talk or express what has happened until all the pain and confusion has gone.
My baby passed away at seven weeks but I didn't find out until eleven weeks. All my pregnancy symptoms were there - tiredness, nausea and a small bump.
When I phoned a midwife to ask about some spotting that had started two days prior she wrote it off as normal.
But I had a nagging feeling that the spotting was not normal so phoned the emergency GP on a Saturday and begged for an appointment at the early pregnancy unit at the local hospital.
By the time they saw me -five hours later - a mono-syllabic scanner told me there was no heart beat. Naturally I broke down and a cold nurse, simply handed me tissues and told me to wait in the waiting room - there was not a ounce of sympathy between them and I felt very alone.
I was sent home with a dead foetus inside me and told to come back to the hospital in nine days for another scan.
It was only when I got home that the oddness of it all struck me.
Why had the hospital sent me home with a dead foetus, which in total would be there for five weeks? Why hadn't my body figured this out sooner? I spent the following seven days feeling very strange.
My head knew something my stomach or womb did not. And no matter how much I learned about missed miscarriages from the net, I could not get the message through to the rest of my body to abort the baby - I felt incredibly disjointed and incredibly pregnant - nothing stopped the hunger pangs, the regular weeing or the nausea.
Seven days later - on Saturday, I woke at 2am with stomach cramps. My partner and I went to A&E in case it was a sign of infection. We were sent home with painkillers. Twelve hours later I was labour.
The contractions were crippling and increased to one every minute by the time I was rushed back to A&E, gushing blood with every contraction. And all I was thinking was no one mentioned this.
My partner was in shock and I was just consumed by the pain. I still have so many questions to ask.
When I finally delivered everything, the gynaecologist just said, "Most women don't have this". That has been my only explanation and I am totally at a loss as to why it happened. I was not offered a D&C or any other treatment, I was just left with a full labour and no baby to hold at the end.
I understand that as far as pregnancy tragedies go, this incident is the just beginning of a long list of more terrible things that can happen but it still leaves me shocked that hurts so much and can leave us feeling so alone.
I don't where to go from here. I guess the thing to do is put it down to experience and move on - but it was such a big moment, I doubt I will forget it.
Thank you, if anything I hope this post prompts people to ask questions because from my experience if you don't ask the right questions, you can be very surprised by what happens. I have since been told that had I gone to another local hospital I would have been offered some sort of treatment straight away, I think this
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