I'm sorry my first post is so depressing, but I just don't have anyone for support. My dp is completely unreasonable in terms of helping out. Rarely changes nappies, (6 in 5 months) doesn't help with feeds, and spends all his time out with friends. In the mean time, I'm trying to cope with a colicky baby without the support of friends or family.I'm still reasonably new in my area, and don't know many people and the few people I do know with children have enough issues with their own children without me crying on their shoulder. I think I've got post natal depression, but have been talked out of being diagnosed by the other half who insists it means our ds will be taken into care. I've got insomnia, and am often awake til 4 am, and tonight in particular, I am struggling. All day, nothing has seemed to help settle my son. He doesn't have a temperature, and has no signs of being ill, and his constant grizzling, as of 2pm this afternoon with the exception of his naps finally got to me enough, and with him thrusting about so much that I nerly dropped him, that I smacked him. Not hard, just a tap, but I'm just so angry and disgusted at myself. He's 5 months old, and I'm a grown woman. I should know better. I'm sorry to have to let this all out here, but I need to get it out somewhere. I now feel like I don't deserve to be a mother
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