Have named changed for this as potentially outing.
I will admit i have been far from the perfect child. I rebelled quite hard in my early 20s because I felt unloved and unsupported and the only people who wants to spend time with me were unfortunately the wrong people and I got involved heavily with drinking and drugs.
Hit a bad depression when i was 18 when my best friend died. I spent 5 years of my life basically not leaving the house and not wanting to communicate with anyone. I couldn't even talk to my parents about it because "I just needed to get over it". Yes they sent me to an expensive therapist but it wasnt working because I wasnt getting support at home.
I have a minor disability and I have always felt this has been brushed under the carpet. Yes they had me attend the appointments I needed to but my family were never told about my disability until about 5 months ago and it's just made me feel like it is a shameful secret and my parents didn't want anyone knowing because they didn't want people knowing I was different.
I have a sister who is complete opposite- stunningly pretty (i am overweight and even if i wasnt i would be average looking), very bright and very much the golden child. I was expected to live up to be the same and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't be.
Anyway. As I said rebelled past few years and I didn't realise how toxic it was because for the first time in my life I thought I was being accepted as a person.
I am still living at home. I get it. They pay my Bill's, give me a roof over my head. I'm grateful. But I cant do anything right. Every job I have isnt good enough, my mum will literally stalk what I'm doing trying to get into my phone etc. It has always been this way even when I was just "normal". As I said I get it it probably isnt nice what they have seen me go through and its stressful. But I have never been good enough.
Then tonight:
I was going to pick something off Ebay for a friend. Mum sitting drunk in the chair goes on a big ramble about "how I'm picking drugs up" so I tell her to come with me.
Put the postcode in the sat nav to a large local town that has about 7 different ways to get into it. Goes on a rant about how I'm "going the wrong fucking way" and just being snarky and picky. I got upset and said I brought her to spend time with her and that it still wasnt good enough.
My period was due 3 weeks ago and I'm late- keeping in mind I'm overweight, it happens all the time, it's a stressful time for me. I went to her and told her upset.
Que her making me take pregnancy tests constantly despite me even ringing my GP and my GP saying to wait as its probably just a late period again. She wouldn't even let me fucking pee on the stick in peace.
I just feel stressed out and I dont know if I'm being unreasonable
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To of had enough of the shit??
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ohbrightlight · 17/09/2020 00:06
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Am I being unreasonable?
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You are being unreasonable
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You are NOT being unreasonable
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