So I've had issues with anxiety for years. Can normally cope just fine, with the occasional lapse into month-long severity which brings any positive progress to a halt (losing weight, taking better care of myself) and forces me into short-term CBT.
I mostly deal with the mental side of it okay, the negative thoughts and avoidance, the over-explaining/over-apologising for things, the underlying fear of death. But over the past two weeks I've been having issues with my breathing. It's this horrible sensation, like someone has their hand around my neck and is slowly constricting... Like there's this immovable weight, akin to a particularly grumpy cat, pressing right down on my breastbone. It honestly feel like I can't get enough air unless I'm literally gulping it in, and even half of that doesn't relieve the tightness in my lungs!
As you can imagine, the feeling of slowly running out of air is bloody scary. It's brought me to tears and panic a few times as it is, the really fun kind where you're blubbering into your hands uncontrollably and anything that any well-meaning person tries to say to you is lost in a buzzing haze of panic.
The real kicker is that, provided I'm keeping myself occupied, I'm completely fine! It's only when I'm left alone to my thoughts that the feeling begins again. Basically, it's all in my head.
So there are currently two schools running through my head. The first: It's all mental, you're not in any danger, if you keep yourself distracted then you'll be fine. Calling for an appointment would take a valuable time slot away from someone who might actually be in danger from something, and they might just send you home after teaching you breathing techniques or some other shite you could find online yourself.
The second: This could be a sign from your body, telling you that something is wrong and that you need help. If it gets worse it might be too late to get help, and there's a chance it could be another condition that would be found too late to stop, and you will die. Horribly.
I know this all probably sounds crazy, but it can be really hard to tell when I'm being rational, or when I'm just creating obstacles for myself to avoid confronting something that scares me (phone calls, doctors). What do you think I should do?
YABU = It's fine, you can handle it yourself/You're overreacting
YANBU = Go and see a doctor, you ninny!
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ChaoticGouda · 22/06/2020 03:50
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Am I being unreasonable?
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