It’s been almost a year since I discovered that my husband had an emotional affair. I’ve ‘forgiven’ but deep down I probably haven’t and I just can’t forget. I’d really appreciate your advice.
So some background info- we’ve been together 10 years, have 2 kids under 6. We’ve got a comfortable life and always had a great relationship.
At the end of 2018 he suffered a bereavement. The death was sudden and overnight he became a shell of the man I knew. I sought a bereavement therapist, information on how to support him but to no avail. He wouldn’t engage. It was heartbreaking.
Fast forward to April 2019. There were subtleties that I began picking up on. He was with us but he wasn’t really. He was on his phone a lot. If I sent him a text on WA, he’d already be ‘online’. Then a couple of times he signed off texts in a different way. I thought it strange at the time but didn’t think more of it. By July he seemed to be doing well in regards to the bereavement but our relationship was suffering and I felt he just didn’t see me. He seemed preoccupied. He was home every night but just seemed vacant. He was on WA a lot, as by this point I would go on to see if he was ‘online’. I had suspicions something was up but didn’t have any evidence.
Fast forward to the end of July. I asked him to leave work early to meet me at the children’s school as they were putting on an end of term show and party. He was irritable and cross. He clearly didn’t want to be there. He wasn’t the same. That night he popped out to pick up food. I checked his work laptop. I saw the emails.
He swears nothing physical happened and I believe him. He cut all contact. He’s turned himself around. Our relationship is back on track. We’ve actually embraced the time during lockdown and we’ve all benefited from the time together. FWIW, I would have upped and left had this happened before marriage and children.
However, I have this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach that I can’t shift. He was texting another woman behind my back. They met for lunch. He was texting her while I was upstairs with the kids. I bring it up probably once every 6-8 weeks. Usually at AF time. I can’t shake it off and I know in the long run if I don’t forget it and put it to one side this will finish what we have.
AIBU, do I just need to move on? But how??
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Mustique · 20/06/2020 07:58
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