I have had to move out of my house into an annex to keep my vulnerable family safe as I’m going back to work. I have always had trouble sleeping, ever since I can remember and now I think I know why because I’m afraid. At first I was afraid of the monster under the bed as a child, I was afraid everyone I loved would die - I was diagnosed with separation anxiety due to my adoption, I was afraid of the ticking of clocks and the stillness and creaks. Then I became afraid of the real monster under my bed at aged 16 when I was sexually assaulted he lead there until I was unconscious, I was powerless. I am powerless when I sleep. My dreams are full of flashbacks, of moments I can’t change, of men I can’t escape. And I’m afraid. I a 22 year old year old woman am afraid of the dark, of what the night brings. I still can’t sleep with a clock, I still can’t sleep with a bed with a gap beneath it, I lock my door every night and hope I will wake up. I guess this is a less AIBU and more a idk who else to tell.
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TW: I think I know why I have been struggling to sleep all my life
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Canyouhelpme · 15/06/2020 23:17
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