I really need some advice no judgements please. I’m married to a cold, unloving man who is quite possibly gay or asexual. I’ll start off by giving some context to explain why certain decisions might be very difficult for me to take. We are from an Asian background so divorce is considered very wrong. I once posted and the overwhelming response was leave him etc. I really don’t mean to sound ungrateful to advice but I cannot do that, at least not now whilst my kids are so small I will have no support at all. There’s so many social implication to this. I have witnessed myself what has happened to friends of family and distant aunties divorcing and really regretting it as and it’s really difficult to try and explain to people who are not from this culture.
I don’t know what I’m looking for maybe just to air out my feelings or hearing from people who have been in my position. He’s a good father but I just feel dead inside, I’m putting on weight as I’m feeling who cares. I used to care about my appearance and now I just don’t care. I didn’t feel this bad before as I had social interactions with people but due to lockdown it’s just him. We sleep in separate beds and today when I tried to talk to him he just got angry and started slamming the doors.
When I’m thinking of the future I do sometimes plan I will leave him when kids are in school as I won’t need that much support from family. I will also go back to work so I have money and can start a life without my family’s support. I really don’t want to die without having been loved, I know that sounds cheesy! I’ve never had a relationship before marriage so don’t even know how I will find someone when I have kids.
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Anon4563 · 14/06/2020 16:40
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