EBF DS.
It was a shit pregnancy, by birth I’d not left the house in 6 months. Went straight into lockdown and my DF was diagnosed with cancer. It’s been tough and I’m having counselling.
We live rurally, there’s nothing nearby and I can’t go anywhere as struggle to express and have a weak bladder.
(DS has stomach issues and two food allergies so GP feels combi/formula feeding ‘isn’t a good option’.)
I’m just struggling. I feel like I’m swimming through treacle to get anything done or achieve. It feels hopeless, like I’ve lost my independence and identity. Like I’m constantly failing and a shit mum.
DH is a man of few words but where I used to be fine with it I’m now interpreting his silence as criticism and negativity. It’s sending my anxiety through the roof and the energy in the house is very heavy. I’ve told him I’m really struggling and a bit of reassurance, praise or affection from him would go a long way but he just doesn’t offer it. I feel like I’m drowning and he’s just watching me quietly. I feel like a needy mess. He’s on SPL with me so it’s all day every day, but he is doing a lot of DIY/ projects.
My psychologist apt’s have gone from weekly to every 3 weeks and I’m so low some days I struggle to get out of bed.
I’m not really sure what to do. Tbh I’m happier when I’m on my own and have taken to feeding DS alone upstairs but I know this seems rude as DH and PIL are in the living room but I just can’t converse. (I love PIL and we get on very well, they’re very helpful but they are similar to DH).
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Pumpertrumper · 29/05/2020 19:59
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