I feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm not sure what to do. Background info: history of anxiety and mild depression (antidepressants for 5 years 2012 - 2017) had mild PND for about 6 months after birth of my son and CBT helped. Before all this I was working 2 days a week, I was made redundant just before lockdown (was planned for months.)
I have been at home with my DS for almost 8 weeks now. He's such a good boy, he is a good sleeper and sleeps 7-7 easily enough and he naps for around 2 hours a day, so I really have nothing to complain about! He's my absolute favourite person in the whole world and I love him dearly but - I can't take it any more. I can't parent all day everyday any longer. I feel snappy, irritable and moody constantly, I feel so tired and lethargic I just want to lay down and sleep all the time - I can barely keep my eyes open and when DS naps I nap too, I am sleeping 9 hours at night and 2 hours during the day.
Today, my DS refused to walk up the stairs to bed and I just lost it - shouted at him and pulled his arm when he was trying to go floppy and have a paddy. I had to walk away and calm down and then come back and apologise to him (he was crying) I feel awful. I am just this horrible, slobby, shouty, cryey mum.
My DH is a keyworker in an NHS hospital (non frontline) so he is at work a lot at the moment.
I am genuinely concerned about my state of mind, it feels so hopeless. I've made a telephone appointment with my doctor for Wednesday, but is there even any point? I'm sure all they'll offer is anti depressants.
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I feel like an awful mother, lockdown MH crisis
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oldlongjohnson · 14/05/2020 20:33
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