I’m writing this here because I feel really protective of her- even though I feel that, in lots of ways, my mum has somewhat failed me over these last few years. I don’t want to be condemned or told off. I know that lots of people have a far worse time than I do, but I’d really appreciate your advise/suggestions/what you did if you have been in same boat.
So, my mum and I used to be really close. We used to choose to hang out together and we had fun. When I was 23 I moved to another town and I guess we just stopped seeing each other that much. I can’t remember if she called much but she’s never really been the sort of mum who takes loads of interest in her children/remembers what they’re doing when, etc. which I totally get as it must be such a stressful whirlwind when you have 4 and you’re on your own.
Anyway, 5 years ago I got engaged/married and she took no interest in my wedding which I found really sad as I would have really liked her to have suggested looking at dresses together, etc. or to look at venues, etc. but she didn’t. At the wedding she drank loads and was fairly vacant. I also moved back to my home town and we live 5 mins away from one another.
3 years ago, I became pregnant with my son and again, she couldn’t have been less interested. She didn’t come and see me or help me or ask me any questions. When he was born, I really struggled and again, she just left me to it. All I wanted was for her to be involved, even a little bit, but she wasn’t interested.
A year ago or so, I spoke to her about all of this and she said she really didn’t think that she has done anything wrong and that I expect too much from her. I genuinely don’t think that my expectations of her are at all unreasonable and find it so hard to understand why, if you care about someone, you would express so little interest in them, especially when they have already confronted you about it. All I want is for her to call me occasionally and once a month, say ‘would you like to go for a coffee?’ or ask how my son, her only grandson is. She knows so little about him or me and it makes me so sad. I see grandparents with their grandchildren in town and at groups and I feel so jealous that I don’t have this relationship even though I have really tried.
I can’t talk to her about this again but I also don’t want to be so angry with her as this means that, when I do occasionally see her, I’m already furious, which doesn’t help the situation. I should also add that she can be very spiteful (I think she thinks she’s really funny) and makes comments about how fat, etc. I am (I’m 10st and 5’9!).
Are any of you in a similar situation? Do you crave the attention/love of a parent but get no where? How do you deal with it? My husband says ‘you know what she’s like. Don’t get upset’ but it’s so hard as I’m so hurt.
Apologies for the long post but I feel really sad about this and want to improve the relationship but finding it hard.
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Opal13 · 10/10/2019 13:25
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