Just that really? (not really an AIBU, but I couldn't find a more suitable home).
Anyway,,,, When people I know have good news, even those closest to me (with the exception of my family) there is always some underlying feeling of not being happy for them and god forbid being jealous?? It's a horrible feeling and absolutely stupid because it's usually relating to things I've already done... I.e.....
- Someone's engaged. I was engaged and I'm now married. But In the back of my head, "what if the ring is nicer, the wedding better, their day is more about them than mine was about me?"
-Someone's pregnant. I was pregnant and have a beautiful son. But hearing this I want to be pregnant again, have a newborn again.
-Someone's bought a house. I own a house. Brain is still a bitch.
You get the gist....
I guess my question is, do I need to speak to someone about this?
I really don't think I'm an intrinsically narcissistic, selfish person, but I just can't turn this bit of my brain off and I hate it!
Why am I always comparing and jealous? Does it hark to deeper insecurities I need to address or is it a natural thing?
Any advice would be appreciated :)