It’s a bit woah is me. But it really is unfair and it’s getting worse as I get old. There are so many women out there who are bigger and who are the most beautiful and perfect looking people because they have such gorgeous faces and confidence and everything going for them.
Then there are plenty of more average looking women who have the most perfect figures, stunning hair, beautiful long legs and who keep in such natural great shape.
Then there is me. I’m both fat and I am ugly. But when I say ugly I mean what a fucking munter. Thing is I can take a decent enough “selfie” but I just took some photos of myself today on my phone’s timer as I wanted to see how grotesque I looked in shorts (preparing for summer) and I was shocked at how disgusting I am. I didn’t think I’d be as bad as that. So incredibly ugly! Like painfullynugly. I’m early 40s and you’d think I was about 60.
At what point do you accept that that is it? Thing is even when I was younger I was fat and ugly. Especially ugly. I’ve been fatter and I’ve been thinner (currently about a 14/16 but with the arms and calfs of at least a size 22. No joke. I thought I may actually have lipidema.) My upper arms look like a normal woman’s thighs. I have extremely large sagging beasts but I’m fairly narrow in the middle so at least identifiable as a woman.
I’m definitely in a severe minority as there is no one out there who is more misfortune than I am with looks and body. The tragic part is that when I look in the mirror it’s not so bad. It’s only in photos where I notice just how disturbing my appearance really is. I’m actually quite embarrassed now after setting the camera to self timer, that I walk about my day to day life thinking that I’m not as revolting as I obviously am!!
AIBU to think that it’s so totally unfair that I’ve been cursed with the worst of both things?
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PiggoSuperstar · 20/04/2019 20:48
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