All in all, maybe I'm just not sure there's anyone who would run through an airport for me, and that makes me very sad
I haven’t seen fleabag but that struck a chord and brought a lump to my throat.
It’s so very hard knowing that there’s no one on your side for the stuff that really matters. I’m in a very similar scenario and it’s practically impossible to convey to someone who hasn’t experienced it.
Have a wallow for a bit and then make sure you do something just for you.
'All in all, maybe I'm just not sure there's anyone who would run through an airport for me'
That was a very lovely line. I can relate to what you say OP. I have a very distant relationship with most of my family and I often feel lonely and isolated, despite having friends and a wonderful partner. All sorts of things can trigger these feelings for me. I had a good sob at Fleabag myself this week!