I have developed a thing about death over the past week or so which is out of character for me. I wouldn't have said it was an obsession as such but I seem to catch myself thinking about it most days. I just find it incredibly sad that what I know now, my life experiences and everybody I love deeply to name some examples will be absolutely nothing at all at some point. I mean everything and everybody will essentially be flushed down the toilet to never be thought of again as though they never even existed in the first place. I don't want myself or anybody I know to die but I realise this is a reality of life unfortunately and that nothing last forever. I genuinely wish life didn't have an expiry date!
I'm never usually the emotional type but I'm literally having to fight back tears due to how depressing I find it all. What I find the most heartbreaking is seeing my parents gradually age, start to struggle more with day to day tasks and their health decling. That is not how I remember them. They were fit, healthy and didn't have as many health conditions as they do now.
This is the first time my heart has took over my head. What is this all about? I don't get where this has all come from. I do have a history of depression ever since I was a young teenager but I'm on long term medication for that which helps me quite a bit. I'm sorry if this was all over the place. I just needed to put everything out there as I couldn't hold it in any longer.
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AsDeepAsTheOceanFloor · 05/04/2019 02:49
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