Ok I realise this isn't an AIBU really but I know that here you get honest replies regardless of topic.
I'm drowning, my mental health has always been shit but I've had about 18 months of feeling 'normal' now I don't know how much longer I can hold it together.
Background... sexually abusive childhood, self harmed, 1 abusive relationship and a date rape incident. Bollocks that looks awful and very clinical written down.
Anyway I met my husband and we have a normal life, kids, bills etc and I havent harmed myself in 14 yrs.
Recently my teenage daughter came to me and told me she didnt want to live anymore, so we have spent the last 6 months putting her back together, shes nearly there and shes so incredibly strong, I honestly couldn't praise her enough for the way shes handling herself.
Now the last 2 weeks I've been struggling, nothing different has happened but all my anxieties, the nightmares and the feeling that I'm drowning is back. I don't know what's happening to me.
I rung the doctors this morning, they cant see me for another 2 months which I thought fine I can make it but I honestly don't know if I can.
I don't know what I'm expecting writing this here, but I don't have anyone else to share this with. I cant tell my husband, hes wonderful but he was so distraught over my daughter and has been so strong for her I don't think I can put this on his shoulders too.
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Amonk3ysbutler · 27/03/2019 21:47
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