Feeling completely vulnerable, like I'm ok now but that something dreadful could happen at any minute and then I'd be royally fucked. I used to have really bad anxiety, now I get a bad day with it every 1 or 2 months maybe.
I am disabled, reliant on different drugs and it keeps crossing my mind there's a chance I might not be able to get hold of them with Brexit, and then feel upset I don't have family who would look out for me.
If there was a flood or terrorist attack (random examples) or something in my town my family wouldn't call me to check I was ok. They're not bad people it just wouldn't occur to them because I'm not important and that's fine. I accept it. But sometimes those random hypothetical situations cross my mine and it hits home how alone I am at the moment. And I'm introverted and usually happy with my own company!
Have wonderful DP who is working in a different country for an extended period and absolutely don't want to cause worry (it wouldn't be fair) so hence posting my stream of consciousness on MN.
I know lots of MNetters have anxiety so thought I'd see if anyone has tips? How do you manage if you have anxiety or panic attacks?
This might sound odd as well and obviously isn’t a long term solution, but if you’re able to do some at-home exercise (squats, holding a plank... whatever you’re able to do) and push yourself a bit, I find the endorphins after even 10 minutes of exercising can help counteract the shakiness and sense of impending doom that can come with a mounting panic attack. Doesn’t always work but often takes the edge off.
🌷🍰 🍫 I’d add wine too, but it might not be good with your meds!
How physically mobile are you?
I had some anxiety after a bereavement, compared to things people have said on MN before, I know it was only very mild, though it seemed to be getting worse. I read something that clicked with me and it really helped. It’s much like others have said & went something like this... Anxiety is only a feeling, it can’t actually ‘do’ anything. Accept that and you’ll take away its power. It’s a feeling, that’s all. It CANNOT DO anything...
I also found fresh air & exercise helped. If I was unable to actually go out (sleeping kids etc), even just opening the door and standing in the doorway helped.
You have my complete sympathy because I cannot imagine feeling worse than that and frequently. It’s a bloody awful feeling.
Good luck, OP, it’s a horrible feeling. I’ve just taken a diazepam for mine. Was watching some pap on TV & feeling beautifully enveloped by sleep but woke up and felt bad. Just tomorrow morning ish to get through. Tried to read for a bit but couldn’t concentrate...
That sounds really upsetting. I've been really struggling with my anxiety today too.
One thing that helped today was listening to music and singing along- I think because singing causes you to breathe diaphragmatically with deeper breaths and physiologically anxiety often involves hyperventilating and taking shallow breaths- it sort of counteracts it. Obviously you might hate singing/listening to music and/or it might not work for you though!
I suffer from anxiety attacks, things that help me are adult colouring, music, crochet, audio books, hot bath, anything to occupy my hands & mind, mindfulness is supposed to be good but I can't lose myself in it.
Hopefully you're over the worst of it now. Breathing exercises can be really useful, I close my eyes and take a long breath, not too deep, and imagine I am breathing in white light, peace and calm. I then exhale, drawing it out for as long as I can, imagining I am breathing out the black smoke of panic. I do this for as long as I need to.
The alphabet game is always a winner too, choose a subject, it could be countries, bands, films, footballers, whatever. One for every letter of the alphabet.