DS started school this year, he's gone to school with two nursery 'friends' who often used to tell him to 'go away' and 'stop following them'. DS is a very gentle, quiet boy, he's a bit behind with language skills, he also lacks confidence and is unable to stand up for himself despite our best attempts. He does martial arts, football and rugby which he loves but doesn't enjoy the parts which involve confrontation and the same applies on the playground - he finds it very hard to deal with either physical or verbal confrontation and just freezes.
Today we were at a birthday party of one of his school friends. There is a group of 3 other 'friends' that he always talks about so I was keen to see how they interacted all together. As soon as the two from nursery saw him they said 'let's run away from DS' and he chased them around thinking it was fun but after a while it was clear that he kept running after them and it was never going to be anyone else's turn. When he finally caught up with one of them he hit him repeatedly. DS didn't react and just shielded his face, after this I took him inside, they were in the playground at this point...then he wanted to play again in the playground after about ten minutes so we went outside again, the same boy hit him so I went up to him and said 'you don't hit, do you understand!!!!!?' He went back inside and looked upset, his mum asked what's wrong and I think he told her but I didn't stick around to see the outcome...
They went back outside to play and I watched again, this boy had all his eyes on me and was trying to push DS but saw I was watching so didn't. The other two boys from nursery were teasing DS, waving to him and saying 'to come play' and then running away.
I feel so so fucking angry and sad. There was one other boy in the playground, all the girls just stick together and don't play with the boys so I encouraged DS to play with this other boy..the other boy was on the slide and said to DS 'go inside! Can you hear me, I've told you four times to go away!!!, You can't come on the slide.' DS just stood and looked at him.
After the party, DH asked why DS didn't tell this boy to give him a turn, DS said he was waiting for the boy to go down the slide, and seemed happy that he waited him out and didn't give in and got a turn on the slide eventually...I guess in that way he 'won' but I hate the fact DS will never say anything, it feels like he's just walked all over.....
Background to this is I was bullied for years as a child, earliest memories of school were wandering around the playground and begging children to play and everyone saying 'this is a three player game' or 'this is a two player game', any number that didn't include me. The social exclusion carried on for years and although I had one friend in primary school and one in secondary, I got to university and was completely unable to socialise in a group. To the point where I drank to passing out in order to tolerate parties, and suffered from depression...I got in a relationship with a complete wanker you used me for sex/cheated on me etc and I ended up suicidal.
My parents also experienced bullying/exclusion as children. They are both painfully shy in social situations and neither of them has any friends at all to this day. As an only child, I used to feel terribly lonely, on my 18th birthday I spent it with my parents and wanted to die as I thought I'd never 'fit' in this world...I now have a lovely DH, some wonderful friends I've met since having DS who I see about three or four times a week, I've never felt so complete, BUT I'm terrified that all the things that made me depressed for so long and feel so isolated are happening again to my DS, I don't know how much of this is me projecting, how much is me making it happen by putting my fears onto him. For example, I often ask him 'if anyone has hit him' or 'told him to go away in the playground'. This is awful and I am painfully aware I shouldn't do it, my mum says if he doesn't understand he is being picked on then it doesn't matter. He does seem blissfully unaware of the way he's been treated right now so I don't want to hammer it home, on the other hand I want to know straight away if these things are happening so I can go to the teacher and stop it before it gets out of control, and I'm so paranoid it will get out of control...Please give me some advice on what to do, I can imagine the pathetic-ness of the situation could be comical to some but the truth is years of bullying, shyness, social anxiety and lack of confidence etc can ruin your life. I feel like the cycle wasn't broken with my parents, me (until now) or even my DH who was also badly bullied as a child, how do I break it with DS???
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NeverAgain234 · 23/03/2019 18:23
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