She asks while on her smartphone at 1 in the bastard morning
Fuck me I've tried everything I can but just can't drop off. I get maybe 3 hours during the day. It's starting to take its toll. I'm miserable. Dd is going through a very difficult time right now (waiting on a Cahms referral, the school are just now starting the process of getting her formally diagnosed with ADHD and Autism. I've had emergency meetings with the Senco officer and her teachers. Plus I had to get her an emergency appointment when she started crying and hyperventilating in class. Her teacher rang me in a panic) so as you can see I've plenty on my mind. I was even prescribed a short course of zopiclone which had no effect at all. I'm stuck in a vicious cycle.
I put a 15 minute timer on my audiobook. Normally I'm asleep within that time (as I can't overthink anything as I'm listening) but sometimes it takes me resetting the timer. I've genuinely never had to reset it twice more than a couple of times. Generally the first 15 minutes calms my thoughts enough....but I have to remember to put on my audiobook. (Fantasy or historical fiction...I don't listen to crime books in bed.... )
I read, listen to music, watch spot popping videos on YouTube, weird I know but it chills me out. I'm on pretty strong pain meds that in theory should knock me out but they don't always. If I get really desperate, i take Piriton or Night Nurse.
*I’m up and showered and hair washed and it’s not 3am yet. I go downstairs and read or watch tv and usually find by about five o’clock I could sleep. Which is no bloody good because my alarm goes off at six.*
Is it any bloody wonder if your showering, washing your hair etc. This actions are meant to wake you up! Not relax you in to going back to sleep
Insomnia is gruelling & feckin miserable (quoth a longstanding insomniac.)
Have a look at this - especially point 5, which most people find too had to do, but it works if you commit & stick to it - www.tuck.com/sleep-hygiene/
If you're not asleep in about 15 mins, get up & do something else. It's a pain in the arse, especially when you have that awful overwhelming exhaustion but sleep is still not happening (I used to feel 'too tired to sleep' if that makes sense). But again, it's training yourself that bed = sleep.
Final tip - combined with all the above, do your routine, get in & get comfy, then work really hard at imagining it's half 6 in the morning & you have to get up at 7. Weirdly, this has often worked for me ... because too often, that's been the exact scenario: up all damn night then nod off just before the alarm. It seems to be easier to convince self to drop off for a few minutes rest than expect a whole night of blissful rest - so once you've tricked yourself into doing this at 10:30 pm, bingo!
Good luck & I hope your understandable daytime worries soon diminish as you get more info & support. x