I feel like a crap mum. I'm coming to the end of my maternity leave (only 2 months left) and I just feel like I've not done much with my baby. I don't know if it's the pressures of social media or if again I'm just a shit mum.
The first couple of months she was born I was bed bound with several post natal infections one after the other. At the same time my daughter was hospitalised shortly with an infection too. After we got over these I promised id make more of an effort to take her to baby classes.
We went for about a month (once a week) and she really enjoyed it and the other babies company. She then got a chest infection before Christmas so didn't attend and then all these classes and things were closed over Christmas so again thought new year, new start!
And then my daughter became really ill it was unforseen and she was hospitalised again with a deadly infection and it's knocked us for six. It's had a huge impact on my mental health and it's taken months for her to recover.
The past few weeks however I just haven't felt up to taking her to these classes. These lovely perfect mums who ooze energy and look fucking amazing.
I'm just a mess, on a weekly basis I see my mum twice (we often go out to the shops or I go to hers and she plays round hers). I also go out maybe once or twice elsewhere on different days. For example the park for half an hour or to the shops again. Sometimes even little drives just to get out the house/get her to nap.
My daughter definitely sees other people but it's mainly adults as not many children in our family. As far as her development goes she's excelling and knows she is very much loved. I give her non stop attention.
I know I'm making excuses for myself and I should just go or try other baby environment places I just don't feel ready yet. I'm still coming to terms with everything thats happened and don't want to be know as "Debby downer" who cant get over the fact her baby nearly died.
At the same time I have this niggling voice in my head saying that my baby is bored and I need to do it for her and time is running out! I can't win!!
So basically AIBU to not go to these yet or at all.. I don't have many friends, well not any who have babies. I'm under the perinatal team and taking medication for my anxiety (postnatal depression has been ruled out).
Do you think it's ok to spend some days indoors? We watch films together, take naps, I put a blanket down on the floor and play with sensory toys for hours, and I read to her and sing to her and give her cuddles.
I did want to try swimming but she's not allowed to go until we've had the all clear after her op in June.
Thanks in advance
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Worriedwart18 · 15/03/2019 14:31
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