Baby 2 months old,husband asks why I won't lose the weight

MissPixxy · 2019-03-11 02:05:07

Hi mums.. First time posting. Love the forums, very supportive. Thought I would reach out to you all as my last hope here.. I am in tears and really need advice. Been married for a year. Dating for about 5 years on and off. DS was born 2 months ago, a surprise. I love him very much. I picked up 23 kilograms with the pregnancy. I've lost 13. 10kg to go. I wasnt very thin before but I looked ok, or so I thought. Before we were married I would often see on his phone he would Google pics of skinny women, lots of them...he enjoyed chatting to them too..but that was very long ago, before we were serious. But something told me to check his phone. A week after baby was born. Bam. Every single days. Pages and pages of facebook pics of skinny girls from the gym. Even some of the ones from his past. Broke my heart but I said nothing, for the sake of baby. What caused all this..I looked at his phone and saw a chat from a girl at the gym..he was commenting on how nice her arms are and flirting with her..this obviously devastated me. I didn't say anything but he knew I looked at the phone. He demanded I admit I snooped and broke his trust. I didnt say anything, that's when he said the weight comment.. He said "I have a question. You lost all the fat and weight in the past for your ex. Why dont you love me enough to do it for me?" I was in shock and could not believe what I heard. In the past I had lost a lot of weight before I dated him, but that was early twenties and I ate nothing and was miserable all the time...that's not a fair comparison. I was in tears and told him that's not fair. And he said it again. Why don't I love him enough to lose the weight I gained. Its been a terrible night. I've been crying and he doesnt care. Said if we didnt have a child he would be sleeping at a hotel. Baby can pick up on vibe and is niggly and wont eat. I'm still in tears and asked him to stop being so angry with me..he just says why dont I admit I looked at his phone and he will treat me normally again. It's not fair. He is in the wrong but I get the blame.. But ladies..the point is..I am broken. I truly believed I married someone who loved me for me, not how I look. I believed he was happy with me. My ex gave me terrible emotional abuse about my weight. Thats why I took extreme measures to lose it. When I met hubby, thought he was so amazing as he loved me for myself, never a comment about weight. I guess he married me believing I would get thin.. I cant stop crying. I'm so insecure to the point of feeling I dont deserve to be in this house..that because of my weight I'm not worthy to be around him.. it's broken me that much.. I feel like I'm worthless and I cant go on anymore. My eyes are so sore from crying. He doesnt care. I look in the mirror and just feel disgust and feel huge. It was ok before..I truly believed he really loved me and didnt have a weight problem.. My pre-pregnancy weight was 80kg. On 90kg now. Was 103kg when DS was born. Please ladies..I feel completely alone and really need your advice...what do I do? Much love xx

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