Recently my mum died after a long illness. My mum was my constant support in life. She told me to be happy and to enjoy my life. She always told me everything would work out in the end. I've been left with my brother (who is my shining light in this situation) and a host of family members who have been hugely unsupportive.
Only a few days before the funeral my dad said to me that he feels I wasted years of my life on bad decisions and I have also had other comments from family members that have made me second guess what I'm doing. I was expecting support from them, but now feel utterly alone and battered down.
I don't know what is 'normal' for someone of my age (29) to have achieved but for a brief rundown, I have some areas of success and some without:
- I live at home, don't have my own place but I have £20,000 in savings
- I have travelled extensively
- I have full time employment but not a career, nor a job I want to stay in
- I have a relationship, although not sure he is 'the one'
They make me feel that living at home, not having MORE money, not having a career and not the best relationship means I have failed. I guess deep down I have felt this too, which is why it struck a chord.
Is my life fairly normal for a 29 year, for any person in general, or are they right that I'm coasting by and not living up to my potential? I'd say my family are high achievers, won't reveal their jobs in case anyone might happen to read this, but they are (mostly) in high earning professions. In comparison to THEM, they make me feel I am not amounting to much.