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My mental health has been in steady decline for a while now. I've felt like I'm losing it on a fair few occasions, been feeling suicidal and been self-harming (not the cutting kind, but there are other ways).
I started a new job a few months ago and I'm still in the probationary period. If I take the day off it would be my third period of illness (the others lasted 1-2 days each as I was conscious about getting into work again asap) and it could trigger all sorts of things; my attendance has previously been raised as a concern, even though otherwise my boss is very happy with my work.
Yesterday was the straw that broke the camel's back and I realised upon waking up this morning that I really need help. I am even ready to take medication - something I have always refused - just to get some clarity back in my life. I have a family and mortgage. I want to phone my GP first thing and try to get help through a crisis team if necessary.
I worry about taking the day off and if SS get involved if I actually talk about how I feel openly with someone. I worry I will lose my job, but feel like I cannot go through another day and wait; I would have to work late tonight as well and I have an important deadline tomorrow.
WIBU to take the day off? I really cannot tell.
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To take the day off?
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PlsPlsPls · 22/01/2019 04:57
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