First of all I’ll start by saying this is my first post so apologies, I don’t know the “lingo”.
I have a beautiful 3 month old boy with my boyfriend and since we got together we knew that one day we wanted to marry each other. Whilst I was pregnant I mentioned I didn’t want him to propose as I didn’t want to feel he would propose to me because of our son. Once our little boy arrived my heart burst with love for both our baby and my partner. So much that I asked him to marry me a month or so after I gave birth. He said no, that it was his job to ask me and he needed a ring.
Fast forwarded to why I feel so heartbroken. In a disagreement, I said he wasn’t committed enough to me or our baby to stay in and he splurted “I was going to propose whilst we were away”. On several occasions he’s mentioned proposing on our night away. He said it won’t be a surprise but he is definitely doing it. He’s even mentioned venues, so then, obviously, I’ve looked and essentially been picking things I want for a wedding.
For our birthdays our families had pretty much paid for us to go to London, and do all sorts! Since then my boyfriend says he isn’t going to propose and even told my mum he needs to feel more secure in our relationship because I’ve been so emotional lately. It has broken my heart. Being a woman, and being a catholic he knows how important and how much I’ve wanted to marry him. I just feel angry, heart broken and embarrassed that I’d built so much excitement up in my mind. It feels like I was going to have everything and now our relationship needs to start from scratch. And this only happened this weekend.
Next weekend I’m supposed to be going to London and I am dreading it. I feel so low and so upset I feel like I don’t want to go. I will be far away from my baby and will have to come to terms I’ll be coming back with a boyfriend not a fiancé.
Am I being stupid here? And should I get over this? I’m not sure if it’s my hormones and starting birth control and periods again. I feel like I shouldn’t be feeling like this but I feel utterly broken. I am honestly looking for advice even if it is brutal.
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E5009 · 16/10/2018 10:59
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