Okay this will probably be long and waffley so my apologies in advance. I've always struggled with depression but since having my son it's just hit me so hard and it seems to get worse everyday. He's 8mo now and still wakes up around 3 times in the night for a feed, he naps 6 hours a day and will absolutely not eat solids regularly (more than a few spoonfuls a day) It's like living with a mobile newborn. I love him to death and other than the feeding he's a dream baby but I find myself spending my days sat on the couch waiting for the day to be over or sobbing.
I have no motivation to do anything, my house is unbelievably messy, something that's always been an issue for me but I promised myself that I would keep up with it when I had him. I spend every night laid in bed dreading getting up and having to go through another day of the same old. I'm having a day today where I just genuinely question what the hell I'm going to do. I feel like I can't go on another day like this. I feel as though I'm going to just have a breakdown and I have no idea what to do. My dp is amazing in general but does not understand my MH issues at all. I've been to the GP countless times and frankly they're utterly useless. No one that I try to speak to about it will understand the severity of how I'm feeling, I want to just give up at this point and I don't even know what I mean by that. I really just can't see myself getting up and being able to do this again tomorrow and I'm just numb. How do I get through this?
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thatsnotmynaame · 13/06/2018 17:02
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