I've had 2 miscarriages in the space if 6 months and I'm just so f*cking down! The last happened in April and I'm just expected to be okay now but I'm really not.
My mum and DP have been great but it's almost as if they think I should be okay now. I know it's because they don't like seeing me upset all the time but I don't know how I'm supposed to just switch this off and 'get on with it'. I went from quite enjoying my job to just loathing being there because all I want to do is be at home. I have lots of colleagues around me having babies or showing me pictures of their grandkids etc... My own DP has kids from ex relationship and I've gone from really enjoying watching him with them to it being like a knife in my chest everytime I come home to him playing with them on the sofa etc...
I'm really struggling and I can't help but feel so lonely :(
So not to drip feed I'm in my mid twenties and my mother had a chromosomal issue when TTC and ended up having a large number of miscarriages and a still birth which absolutely terrifies me as I'm convinced I'll be the same which I think is giving an extra dynamic to this whole thing.
I know you can't just sit and wallow in sadness but I bloody want to and hate being told 'you have to deal with this' as if it's so easy to switch off :(
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Mangoo · 08/06/2018 19:44
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