To think il have to get sterilised??

[HickityPickityPoof]

I've got BPD, battling for years with mental health professionals to try be diagnosed with something, anything that makes sense.

I met one MHP and he noticed it straight away. Yet 10 years with docs and none said anything was wrong.

My biggest issue with it is the "taking risks", I'm an idiot, I am literally playing Russian Roulette with my life!

I keep having unprotected sex, I feel like I should just get sterilised, that way I can't get pregnant.

It sounds easy to say, just use a condom but I wish it was as simple as my brain processing that "in the moment".

I hate myself, I literally despise who I see in the mirror, why can't I just be fucking normal??!

[TheCriminalMind]

How about a long term contraceptive like the implant or the coil?

[HickityPickityPoof]

I've tried most contraception, either makes me physically or mentally ill.

I've been trying to search alternatives that won't affect me.

[Fruitcorner123]

You're right about contraceptives. I don't have BPD but suffer from depression and all contraceptives affect me too. Don't know what to suggest but talk to your MHP about how to deal with this. Sterilisation is very severe and potentially life changing and couldn't it also have mental health implications if it affects hormones? (Dont know of it does but it just seems ot might) not to mention the fact that it won't protect you from STIs

This is definitely one for a healthcare professional

[zomlingsattack]

Definitely don't get the implant. I have no my issued and became a depressed raging nightmare on it and had to have to removed after 6 months.

[Ellendegeneres]

Do you mean borderline personality disorder or bipolar disorder? Many use bpd for both- I have a reason for asking I promise!

[TitsNnails]

Would the copper coil be an option?

[JamPasty]

Sounds like you need to explore with a professional (councellor/therapist/etc) what your thought processes are "in the moment" and how you can address that, because even if you can get sterilized, you are still putting yourself at constant risk of STDs. For example, are you trying to self-sabotage, are you seeking the thrill of "misbehaving", etc etc

[Lilymossflower]

Always remember there is nothing wrong with you

You are exactly the perfect you, your brain, your quirks, everything

I believe that many mental health and labels are actually caused he our modern society, causes lack of community, trust, disconnection, and hundreds of other things that negativity affect many aspects of our physical and mental health


You are perfect

[rosestones]

It sounds like a sensible idea of you can't manage to use other contraceptives and if a pregnancy would be disastrous. However it wouldn't protect you against STIs, and there might be other risks if you mean you're having unprotected sex with multiple/casual partners. If you're young you might find it difficult to get a referral though.

[HickityPickityPoof]

Oh sorry, I have Borderline Personality Disorder.

[HickityPickityPoof]

LilyMossFlower, that is so incredibly kind! Thank you so much

[HickityPickityPoof]

I'm the most rational and understanding person yet it comes to sex & poof, all reason goes.

It's like I want to get pregnant, like I don't even care the implications.

The whole "getting pregnant" isn't the end of the world. Having the stigma of having a child with someone I've known 8 weeks is.

Shockingly enough, I've managed to avoid unwanted pregnancy for 11 years until I had my son (planned).

I thought I'd learn to be careful & change my thought process but apparently I haven't.

I'm sure the sexual health clinic think I'm a sex worker given how many tests I've had in the last 6 months.

It's actually shameful

[Ellendegeneres]

hickety I’m diagnosed bipolar and the sex thing was a huge one they asked at appointment when I got diagnosis which is why I asked.

The fact that you’re recognising it and being regularly tested is a positive. You won’t be the only one they see regularly with mh problems, trust me it’s not a concern. What is a concern is things like herpes can be contracted even with a condom.
You absolutely must take control of this and speak to your Drs about medication to help you. I don’t know anything about borderline personality disorder, but there must be something they can do to help.

[HickityPickityPoof]

I hope there is Ellen, it's really getting on top of me and affecting my life now.

Come to think of it, I'm getting worse in most aspects.

I spend money like it's going out of fashion, I drive incredibly recklessly, I eat until I'm about to throw up & I have sex unprotected.

I feel like I'm quickly losing control of myself.

[DairyisClosed]

Have you tried a copper coil? I have one and I love it. If you already have then sorry for bringing it up. I hop you find something that works.

[BiscayTrafalgarFitzroy]

I second copper coil - completely hormone free and lasts for 10 years when in place.

[Pippa12]

Third tge copper coil- completely hormone free so would not cause any hormonal imbalance what so ever

[MyDcAreMarvel]

Copper coil may be hormone free however it causes a hormone change in the most and in some women has horrendous side affects.

[MyDcAreMarvel]

www.aliverpoolmum.co.uk/copper-coil-effects/