So I've been given weekend leave from the hospital as of Saturday morning. I have to go back Monday morning.
I just can't stop crying. I've had a bath, and had a lovely lazy day with DH watching Harry Potter and eating whatever I fancied (not much stayed down but still), but I just can't stop crying.
It's never ending, it's been all day now, on and off all day. I'm crying because I'm relieved I'm not dead, I'm crying because I lost our baby in hospital and failed at keeping them safe, I'm crying because DH had to help me upstairs and into the bath, I've cried because DH was told I would probably die at some point during one of the god awful nights in January and I'm upset that he had to deal with that, I've cried because I have to go back on Monday, I've cried because my hair was so knotty after 5 weeks in hospital it took 4 hours of brushing it to get it all out and DH had to do most of that. I've also cried because I can't go back to work for months because I might be contagious to tiny babies.
Is this amount of crying normal? I know I'm a nurse but I usually deal with poorly babies and they don't remember being in hospital.
I can't sleep tonight and it's annoying me so much! I have a snoringDH next to me and a snoring Dog on my feet and I should be so happy I'm home but I can't stop crying.
Anyway aibu to ask you to gently kick me up the bum as I didn't die and don't need to cry so much!
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I can't stop crying I need a kick up the arse *sensitive*
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Christmastits · 18/02/2018 01:46
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