Ex BF and I broke up 4 months ago. Since then I've slept with 4 people. Every time it happens I have this massive feeling of guilt to my ex as I hope to get back with him one day. I'm undiagnosed, being assessed for Borderline personality. I don't know whether this has any relation but I know unstable relationships and risky behaviour is part of why I went the doctors in the first place as I couldn't explain my own actions and state of mind.
I was out last night and went to a new friends house to call a private cab home. And while there he tried it on and I had sex with him. It wasn't forced or anything but now I just regret it so much.
I can't stop getting myself into these situations. I take drugs recently, go out binge drinking 8pm till 6am Atleast once a week, have unprotected casual sex. What the hell is going on with me..
AIBU?
To be this upset at my own actions?
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