It sounds like it’s not for you. So ok, what could you change to make it better? Would a house share or getting a lodger help? Are there friends or family you could move in with? Could you get a pet, or work different hours so you’re not at home during the times you dislike the most? Go to the gym or join a Club? I’m sure MNetters could help you find a way to make it better for you.
I have a hate love relationship with being alone. I hate eating and sleeping alone but would otherwise prefer to live alone. I hate having my husband's stuff lying around. I hate having noises associated with other people living with you.