Yesterday in the bath I caught myself thinking about running away and leaving everything behind to basically do a Gaugin and paint nudes on some island somewhere as I am no closer to living my dream and won't be for the foreseeable future, I can often start fantasising that way around this time of year and as I've been diagnosed with depression before I just figured it's part of the seasonal aspect to it which does tend to properly get its teeth into me around November.
Yesterday though it followed on with 'I guess it would be better to die now without having achieved anything because you leave less behind that way.' I don't know if anyone else has thought this or whether it's the depression talking, I do feel like a failure in my work and personal life and I think this is starting to push me more towards Impulsive action. I don't know, am I basically just having a midlife pity party because I haven't achieved anything or does it sound more like the depression?
Does anyone else think like this when they're overwhelmed?
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lilathewerewolf · 27/10/2017 13:54
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