Already posted in postnatal health, there's not many people about and I feel so alone. This is going to be a long one, I apologise.
I am 17 and have a lovely 10 week old baby boy. My boyfriend and I are very much together and our current situation means that we are living with my parents during the week and staying with his mum (60 miles away) at the weekend. Boyfriend works and I am on a 1 year gap from A levels.
The trouble is I just feel crap. I love my little boy to pieces but I'm just so lonely. Obviously all my friends are still at college and I know no one else who has babies. During the week it is just me on my own with the little man and i barely get time to eat/ get dressed/ shower. My mums work schedule now means she works at home Mondays and Wednesdays so I at least have some company that's sole interest at the moment isnt in the night garden. Me and baby go to a sensory class every Thursday which is great and gets us out but it's only for 1 hour. I don't drive (learning to) and with this shitty weather getting out is hard and well I have no one to go out with.
I am well aware I'm lucky to have a good sleeper so we do feeds at 11, 6 and, 10. The trouble is I suffer from fibromyalgia so I am exhausted. I do all these feeds as boyfriend gets up for work at 6:45. But I am still exhausted.
It's getting to the point where I am watching the clock constantly and looking for things to fill time until someone comes home. The worst is when boyfriend gets home, I breath a sigh of relief, for him to then tell me he's got to go out and won't be back until later. It's like the whole world has just tumbled on top of you. This leaves me to do bath & bed and deal with the ones grumpy time that he likes to have in the evenings all whilst finding time to shower and eat dinner and sterilise bottles and tidy ect.
I dread waking up in the morning on the days I am alone. Sometimes I don't even feel sad I just feel numb.
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mummytomylittleman · 19/10/2017 21:18
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