Hi all,
Not sure where to start with this but I'll do my best.
I recently got clean after many years of prescription drug and alcohol addiction, 90% of this is wonderful and I feel like I have my life back, however it has brought to light how much I was using substances to get me through even basic social interaction. I generally find it hard to empathise, am not emotionally demonstrative unless seriously intoxicated and tend to get away from other people as fast as possible as I either draw a completely uninterested blank or bang on inappropriately about something completely irrelevant to the conversation like the Reformation or, more recently, the GULAGS. I've mentioned this to my keyworker and she says she wants me to talk to my GP about the possibility of having Aspergers as to her it's 'obvious'. I have scored very highly on a supposedly trustworthy internet test for it but these can't be reckoned to carry the same weight as a 1 to 1 medical with a doctor surely.
I have good eye contact and can make small talk which I think counts against this idea. I can also switch on a convincing social persona to get me through interactions with people so I don't think it's obvious at all. I will admit to taking things incredibly literally at times and in an argument I will only focus on the exact words a person has used and not the feeling they were trying to convey which frustrates my partner as he feels I only care about taking his argument apart rather than listening to how he feels. I also admit to finding the whole 'feelings and talking about them' part of relationships exhausting. I am not particularly interested in sex. My mother is the same way emotionally so perhaps this is learned behaviour but I do sometimes feel like I have fundamental human experience parts missing.
I'm sure there are many people with experience of Autism spectrum conditions who post here and so I am asking what you think. Thank you.
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lilathewerewolf · 14/10/2017 20:37
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