To feel elated and so sad at the same time?

[PhDPepper]

I had a molar pregnancy in April which was awful and had to have chemo because my hcg levels kept rising even after 2 D&Cs. We tried for 5 months before we got pregnant with a complete molar pregnancy which is where an egg with no dna gets fertilised and grows like a cancer.

So we can’t get pregnant until next March that’s a definite because of the chemotherapy and it all just sucks a bit.

Our best friends have just said they’re pregnant after an accident but they think they’ll cope and will keep it.

I am so happy for them! I really really am, but I’m also devastated that it’s not me. I need someone to give me a kick up the arse and tell me to stop being a twat.

[justanothermomentintime]

You've had a rubbish time of it

What you're feeling is normal. Be kind to yourself and just take it easy.

[OwlinaTree]

for you. March will come round really quickly, honestly.

Plan lots of activities between now and then that you can't do when pg.

Waiting to get pg is the shittest thing ever. Hope it works out for you.

[PinkyBlunder]

You don't need a kick up the arse and you are most definitely not a twat. What you're feeling is completely justified and id put good money on anybody that's been in the same or similar situation as you having felt the same way. I'm currently pregnant with my second rainbow baby and I know I certainly have!

[PhDPepper]

Thank you all I feel so guilty I feel like this.

[Bambamber]

Your not being a twat, I've never been through it personally, but I think how you're feeling is totally normal in this situation. It must have been, and still be incredibly difficult for you. Be kind to yourself

[Farontothemaddingcrowd]

totally understandable that you feel this way. You sound like a lovely friend and I hope the time passes quickly for you.

[FannyTheFlamingo]

Oh my goodness....I'd never heard of a molar pregnancy. How awful for you. I'm TTC and very over emotional about it. Your post made me cry, and made me feel a little silly for getting so emotional about my own journey, which is nothing compared to yours. Please don't be hard on yourself. It's nearly Xmas...when Xmas is over it'll nearly be Easter. Time goes quickly, less so when you're willing it to pass, but still quickly. Your body needs some time to be ready. Be kind to yourself.

[ReasonableLlama]

I completely understand.

If I were you I would embrace autumn with Halloween and the run up til Christmas to keep your mind occupied. Then book a week or weekend away in Feb and before you know it March will be here.

[ticketytock1]

Yanbu
I had an ectopic in July and it's horrible to have to deal with these kind of stories. But unfortunately you will come across pregnant women everywhere you look, I just try to smile and be happy for them, but it hurts so bad inside

[ICantDecideOnAUsername]

Of course you feel devastated. It's bad enough even without close friends falling pg.

Give yourself a break and take it easy on yourself.