I know my mum was abusive,emotionally and physically.
But I'm so torn in "defining" my dad. Was he an abusive dad,husband?
He was quite controlling with money, quite jealous and he slapped mum once. He was quite paranoid about certain things but I understood more why as I became an adult.
I used to love him a lot when i was really little,but that changed to a certain degree of indifference and being more annoyed with him.
He did half the care when i was a baby,as they worked around eachother,so did half the nappies,feeding etc.
He's the one that i can remember playing with me,not mum.
He's the one that came to parent teacher meetings or when i was in trouble at school. Mum didn't want to deal with the embarrassment.
I remember being afraid of him when he'd come back,but no idea why. He never really shouted or hit me, i just thought he would.
Actually the few times he did hit me, it was mum egging him on. She did that quite a lot pitting us against eachother,playing the victim. He'd come home and she'd be all headaches and miserable ,or crying about how awful i was. I've also had goes at him for upsetting her as well. And the love started slipping.
He was actually more the talk things through type,but never felt i could talk to him. Don't think i even tried. I did talk to mum but she always threw what i said back in my face or laughed at me or used it as a weapon.
I never doubted his love for me, and he was the one that always believed in me,that i could do anything.
I remember once mum moaning about me being fat and asking his opinion on fat girls and he said how he didn't like fat women and he didn't think they were attractive. Very little love left by then,but even less after that.
He would defend mum, he did half the housework, he would make her breakfast every morning. He'd wake up extra early on weekends to make sure we all(more her)had a nice breakfast when she came home from night shift.
He'd try to keep me quiet and out of the way so she could sleep.
He slept in my room for two years because i wanted to sleep with mum.
All great things but at the same time he was quite controlling with money,quite jealous and he hit her once.
I dunno...
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RebelRogue · 08/10/2017 18:42
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