NC as this is embarrassing
I have low self-esteem and insecurity issues and every day is a constant battle to fight bad habits that I allowed myself to get into as a result - checking my DP's exes Facebook/Instagram feeds, stressing about who he's with and what he's doing when he stays away from home for work and social events etc.
I'm working so hard to address my thought processes - I've stopped looking on social media, I restrain myself from asking questions about DP's whereabouts etc. but I'm exhausted. It's constant effort and restraint, and although it's paying off a little, sometimes I still feel absolutely haunted.
I feel that I had a relapse this morning - DP has a habit of quickly minimising his computer screen or closing apps on phones if he notices me there. I'm feeling a bit low and I wasn't able to stop myself picking an argument with him about it. I see it as suspicious behaviour because it happens all the time, too much to be a coincidence, but he insists he's done nothing wrong and gets angry at me because he feels I'm accusing him of cheating.
So yes, I know really that IBU, but does it get easier? If I keep trying, will I ever get the peace of mind and security that I need and want so badly? Has anyone felt really low, jealous and insecure but it passed and you feel happy now?
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
AIBU?
Jealousy/Insecurity - do things ever get easier?
11 replies
AmINearlyThere · 31/03/2017 13:09
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.