So much to this but try to keep it breif. I am currently in a situation where i work 12 hrs a week, earning less than i would on JSA, the shifts are evening, which were OK when taken as was alongside other work, and had childcare from parent and ex dp.
I have severe chronic depression. Parent who part does childcare one evening has had health scare, in hospital tomorrow, possible on going condition. May need support from me, let alone be able to do childcare. I feel like i hardly get to see my child (shes in full time school, and at ex p's half weekend).
I am just so depressed at the moment i am suicidal. I can barely get out of bed to function, keep up with flat and look after dd, let alone face people. I feel like i have no outer skin, keep having to run off to cry. I am not a very strong person at the best of times, but my best friend killed herself recently, I have broken up from a long term partner in the last year and a half, and now this healthscare with a family member. I am fed up of never seeing my daughter, of being broke and anxious. Originally i through myself into my work as a means of structure and stability, but now the stress and anxiety of having to leave the house is bringing me to tears. coupled with the fact i earn much less in this work than i would on JSA.
I know this sounds pathetic and people cope with much more, but im fed up of putting on the face to be strong. I just want to throw in the towl and concentrate on my daughter and have nothing else to be worried of for a bit. But then what? i dont know. I could try to top up the income with JSA (im currently £600 in debt) but the forms are so complicated i cant work it out and im always not able to find the paper work i need to support the claim.
Im off to work now, so wont be able to reply for a bit. but would appreciate an outside perspective. got no one to ask in real life.
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Superhumancrew · 03/01/2017 16:23
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