to feel like I always compromise?

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For example, NYE plans.

I live with two other girls. Girl 1 is happily coupled up and normally fine doing her own thing with her dp, but likes hanging out with us when he's not there. Girl 2 is single (as am I) and we tend to do some things together.

I have big exams coming up after xmas and purposely decided not to do anything big on NYE in order to not waste days recovering. However Girl 2 and I said we would head back to our house on the 31st (both staying with family at the moment) and have a few drinks then look round for a house party or something. Girl 1 said she would potentially join then do her own thing with her dp after midnight.

Now plans have changed and Girl 2 is staying at her family home but has kindly invited me up. I have had to decline even though would have loved to make it as really need to do work and cant take out two/three days just to relax... So am now going to stay at family home and have a quiet one.

Girl 1 seemed a bit put-out when I said I wouldn't be returning to our shared home any more - although when I hurriedly said actually I would come up and get takeaway/have a few drinks with her, she has said that it's fine and not to worry. But I get the feeling she's still not 100% ok with it?

I feel like I can't do right for doing wrong! I haven't broken existing plans, just changed plans after someone else has. And then offered to work around them. I feel like everyone has their own agenda and I just follow and still people are pissed off! Can anyone relate???