Hi everyone, long time reader, first time poster. I don't mind if I get a bit of a booting up the arse posting in here, I probably need it.
So, for a long time things have been getting on top of me and I feel in the last few weeks I've had a complete meltdown and am now really struggling with my daily life. I don't really know what triggered it, but I am just suddenly having a hard time.
I have anxiety and am on meds for this. However it has gotten out of control - I have had real issues with health anxiety in the past and am worried they will resurface. To help me cope better with my anxiety I have been considering going NC with my mum. She has been emotionally, verbally and slightly physically abusive as long as I can remember (I'm in my 30s now) and I find dealing with her a real challenge. She is manipulative and angry all the time and even being around her makes me tense.
For the past year or so my partner has been struggling with depression in quite a serious way and I feel I have tried to hold myself together for his - and my - sake. He cannot enter into a conversation about my feelings as it is clear he finds this incredibly difficult and cannot relate easily to other people.
I have a really challenging and draining job and overall I find that all of this amounts to me coming home, having a good cry every night and barely having the energy to pull my pjs on and go to bed. This has made me realise things need to change.
I don't really know what I'm looking for from this if I'm honest. I don't mind being told IABU, as it would help me get some perspective. I guess I just wanted to vent a bit.
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To just feel totally pants and really fed up?
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user1479153350 · 14/11/2016 20:06
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