I just want to cry my eyes out

[calliiee]

Every time I try to explain I can't. And I just make it all worse.

[TheoriginalLEM]

have a cry -you'll feel better

[e1y1]

Is this to do with your plans on the back of changing your monthly budget?

[pipsqueak25]

please try to tell us what's on your mind, we want to help if we can, doesn't matter if it sounds silly, trival or massively big, if it's upsetting you then try to share.

[calliiee]

I try usual but it just all gets tangled and people think I'm being an arsehole and I promise I'm honestly not. Years ago someone did something really bad to me and I saw them on Friday and it's made me so scared. And there's other stuff from the fallout of that I can't talk about. I have spoikt plans for others as I've been so upset.

[LineyReborn]

I was just reading your where to move to thread. Are you ok?

[GrabtharsHammer]

Why don't you just tell us what it is that you need? Don't worry about privacy, you can simply name change afterwards and no one will be any the wiser.

[Awwlookatmybabyspider]

What's wrong. We'll do our best to help support and advise you, but. We need more details.

[happypoobum]

OK, deep breaths. Nobody here will use the word, but did the person hurt you physically? Are you feeling safe?Don't worry about other peoples plans being scuppered.

They probably don't know the full details, and anyway, fuck 'em. You have to do what is right for you.

[TheCatsMother99]

I wonder whether you could call the samaritans and have a chat? Even if it takes you an hour to get a sentence out I really feel that you'll be feeling better after.

Whatever you're going through, I genuinely hope you're OK.

[pipsqueak25]

having someone to listen will help enormously samaritians don't judge, they are there to listen and it is a service for those who are in despair [not necessarily suicial] but need to talk because they are in a bad place at the present time. rape crisis phone line is also good, for any type of sexual abuse, please make the call.

[exbloomer1]

No one on here knows you so you can write whatever you need to and purge yourself, I promise from experience even just putting pen to paper WILL help and it certainly sounds as though you need it xx

[neonrainbow]

You could try the samaritans if you don't want to spill it all out on the internet ... i know i wouldn't? I think some posters were right arses to you on your moving thread. Have you had any counselling or do you have any real life support?

[RubbishMantra]

Hello calliiee,

Don't worry about ruining other peoples' plans. I'm sure you've not ruined anything. The most important thing is your safety and well-being.

The Samaritans do good work, but could you google for a similar agency, specific to the crisis you're going through? Then phone them, and talk it through? Even if you're sobbing, and trying to talk through snot and tears, they will listen.

[pipsqueak25]

callie sorry but some posters seem to know some back story to this from another thread you wrote ? most of us won't be able to help as we aren't in the picture so to speak.

[mumofthemonsters808]

OP you need to get what's swirling around in your head out into the open. Have a good cry, splash your face a few times, drink some water and start typing away. If you don't do this, your mind will keep turning things over and over, the problem just escalates. Most things in this life are solvable, sometimes we just cant see it and need others to help us.

[LineyReborn]

OP's got a lot on her plate at the moment with finances, DP and probably having to move.

Hope you're ok, OP. I know how it feels to be overwhelmed, if you want to talk.

[SuperPug]

This is a great place for advice but I think it's good to see someone in RL- can you book an appointment with your GP first thing tomorrow as it sounds like you're not ok, generally.
Previously, I thought it was a load of rubbish but writing ten things down you're grateful for and ten things you're going to work on really helped me.

[Finola1step]

calliiee it may be that an anonymous Internet forum may not be the best source of advice for you right now. It might be better for you to talk to the Samaritans regarding how you are feeling today.

The Citizens Advice Bureau or Shelter may also be worth talking to at some point re your housing questions.

I wish you well.

[Sugarpiehoneyeye]

Callie, we're all here for you, nobody is going to rip you a new one.
We all understand that you are upset, we want to help, to make you feel better. There are so many people here, who are able to give wonderful advice. Take a chance, we're listening. 🌺

[calliiee]

I don't have any housing questions. But thank you.

[SestraClone]

Your posts are frustrating as they are obviously a cry for help, yet you won't give even the briefest of details.

Do you know what it is you want from Mumsnet?

[calliiee]

You know what would be lovely is if people could stop calling me names.

[GrabtharsHammer]

Who has called you names?