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Stormwhale Thu 27-Oct-16 21:25:42

I have found a lump on the underside of my jaw. It doesn't feel like a fatty lump, and it's not a spot. It is stuck to the underneath of the skin, it doesn't move freely under the skin. It is irregularly shaped, not round and not smooth. It is not at all painful, it's not red or anything. I found it about 3 weeks ago and I'm shitting myself. I can't seem to get the guts to go to the doctors.

I'm fucking terrified. I have a 3 year old daughter and I'm so scared that it's something serious. I need to go to the doctors but I'm so scared.

ExitPursuedBySpartacus Thu 27-Oct-16 21:27:59

Get thee to the doctor. The fear is far worse than the reality.

There is a Lacie's thread on here with deeply knowledgeable people if you need support.

Wolfiefan Thu 27-Oct-16 21:29:22

Find the guts. It is more than likely nothing scary but if it is then delaying it will only make it worse. Call first thing. Get seen.

ExitPursuedBySpartacus Thu 27-Oct-16 21:30:06

It's in General Health

blueturtle6 Thu 27-Oct-16 21:31:49

Go the doctors, I had a mole. It grew. Was terrified, was melanoma in situ,was treated and all clear now. If id left it it would have been much worse.
Please please please make an appointment.

Stormwhale Thu 27-Oct-16 21:33:59

Exit what is lacies please?

Looking at a thread about cancer is too much. I can't even talk about this irl. I haven't told anyone at all.

I am potty training dd, but she is back at preschool on Monday. I'm trying to convince myself I need to go on monday.

I have health anxiety anyway, but I can't rationalise this. It ticks all the boxes for a suspicious lump. The fear is definitely there. I keep touching it and feeling that it's not smooth and not fatty and getting more scared.

Thinkingblonde Thu 27-Oct-16 21:34:27

Please go to your GP. Worrying like this is pointless. The lump could be a cyst or a swollen lymph node. I had one that was caused by a tooth abscess. I wasn't aware of the abscess , it was painless but it was the swollen lymph node that drew my attention to it. I was sent for x rays and the and the abscess was found.

Rainydayspending Thu 27-Oct-16 21:35:04

Go. Knowledge is so important and you need to be "in the know" on your health for the sake of being the responsible parent (sorry). Don't let this worry affect you and your day to day life!

Mishaps Thu 27-Oct-16 21:37:42

Think how great you will feel if he GP says it's nothing to worry about - use that as your motivation to go right now.

lljkk Thu 27-Oct-16 21:37:53

swollen gland, I'll wager.
It won't get better by you fretting about it at home.

Stormwhale Thu 27-Oct-16 21:39:32

Sorry this is a pathetic thread, but you know sometimes it's easier to type what is scaring you shit less instead of saying it aloud. I think I just need a talking to. Just to get the panic under control and get this dealt with. I think even knowing the worst would be better than this fear of the unknown.

AnnieOnAMapleLeaf Thu 27-Oct-16 21:39:51

It is likely nothing. Strop stressing yourself out and get to the doctor to have it checked. Fretting about it won't make it go away.

ExitPursuedBySpartacus Thu 27-Oct-16 21:40:15

It's a cancer support thread

SparePantsAndLego Thu 27-Oct-16 21:41:09

I had a swollen salivary glad that was v similar, except I fiddled with it so much that it hurt. The worry of something like this is often worse than the reality.

mudandmayhem01 Thu 27-Oct-16 21:41:33

Get it sorted, I had breast lump, the GP was great, reassuring but didn't make any false promises, referral to breast clinic within a week,was scared in the run up to the appointment but after a mammogram and ultrasound it was confirmed as a cyst. The relief on walking out of that clinic was immense but even if it had been bad news I would have been dealing with it quick as possible which I feel I owe my kids.

SparePantsAndLego Thu 27-Oct-16 21:41:49

Ahem, gland not glad!

Itchyclit Thu 27-Oct-16 21:43:24

Doctors. ASAP. You have an obligation as a parent to your kids, as well as to yourself, to get it checked. Please. Get on with doing so.

Stormwhale Thu 27-Oct-16 21:43:35

OK. I'll go on monday and report back. It's going to be fine. I'm only 26, it's going to be a cyst or swollen gland or something. I'm going to repeat that to myself like a mantra over the weekend and then I will go. Then I will feel guilty for wasting their time. God I hate living with anxiety.

ShmooBooMoo Thu 27-Oct-16 21:44:21

You have no choice! Make an appt. first thing. It may be nothing but if it's sinister the sooner you go and get it checked out the better.

Lupinlady5 Thu 27-Oct-16 21:48:31

Could be anything. Go to the doctor! Nobody can tell you what the answer is except for a doctor.

Stormwhale Thu 27-Oct-16 21:53:35

Sorry I know none of you can give me the answer. I think I just needed a kick up the bum.

HPandBaconSandwiches Thu 27-Oct-16 21:57:59

Go tomorrow (if you can get an appointment). Either it'll be nothing important (most likely) in which case you'll sleep better knowing. Or you'll need further investigation and occasionally in some cases every day counts. Put on your big girl pants Storm and get to the doctors, for the sake of your daughter as well as you. Don't put off going because it's not convenient, put your DD in a pull up and take her with you.

flumpybear Thu 27-Oct-16 21:58:41

Go tomorrow .... without fail!!! It's FAR more likely to be bugger all to worry about. You KNOW that deep down and finding that out will be a relief. I have health anxiety and get myself wrapped in knots about stupid things ... I hear abs understand your worries but I can see me in you and HONESTLY think you're making your life a misery for nothing wineflowersstar

BowieFan Thu 27-Oct-16 22:01:05

I had this. I'd already had cancer once and was convinced I'd got it again. It was just a lump and I felt so much better for visiting the GP.

Stormwhale Thu 27-Oct-16 22:08:18

I have got someone coming round tomorrow as well as finally cracking the potty training today. I promise I will go on monday. I have tried with the potty training a few times with dd and it has gone to shit because something has meant we had to go out before she got the hang of it properly. I really owe it to her to give her the best chance this time. She is so excited to be in her big girl knickers. Not a single accident today, both poos and wees in the potty. I'm really proud. I don't want to mess it up for her this time. Honestly I will go on monday.

Also, mine and dps relationship has been a bit rocky of late and we are going out tomorrow night. I don't want to ruin it if it's not good news at the doctors. We need this. It's been a shit storm of a year and we are drifting apart. There is just so much going on at the minute, this is going to have to wait until Monday. I promise I will go on monday though and will update once I have been. Hopefully you can all say I told you so if they tell me it's nothing to worry about.

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