Name changed for this but a regular poster.
I recently went to my gp and got on the road to sorting out my mental health which has been a huge relief. I have been referred for CBT and had my first session today.
I will try and keep this as short as possible but just want to give some background of why I think I may have ocd.
Always been nervous and somewhat obsessive but it spiralled out of control when my dd was born nearly 8 years ago now. Over the years I have had breakdowns over germs, alienated family members due to fears of someone making dd sick and spent far too much time researching and obsessing to try and calm myself down.
My anxieties are usually health related or any kind of threat to dd or ds, although sometimes they can be completely random obsessions.
I find if I move my eyes in a certain way in a pattern it gives me some relief (like if I don't do it something bad will happen).
I am always washing my hands and feeling like I may have germs on them, this is particularly bad when cooking meat.
I function as well as possible but there are times when I go so far down the rabbit hole that things I've thought in my head start to cloud reality.
I have intrusive thoughts and although I'm a very gentle passive person I do always fear doing something wrong (even though I absolutely never would).
Went in today and the lady I saw thinks I just have anxiety and I need to deal with realising that the panic attacks can't actually hurt me.
I don't want to self diagnose at all but after reading people's stories of living with ocd I have laughed and cried as I could have written most of them myself.
I have another session next week. WIBU to suggest ocd?
AIBU?
To ask if I have OCD
IWantToGetOffTheTrain · 19/10/2016 16:28
I have OCD, and I have read a lot about it.
TBH, I was expecting something about cleaning when I clicked on this thread, but then I read your actual OP.
Obviously, I am not trying to diagnose anything here, but what you have written reads like a case study on OCD, it has so many of the classic signs and symptoms.
What I would say is that even if you do have OCD, receiving help in relation to anxiety might still help a bit, as OCD is an anxiety disorder and many people find it is worse at times when they are anxious anyway.
BTW, I didn't even bother going through the NHS to get therapy, as I wanted to be able to choose my own therapist (oh, and because due to my OCD I couldn't go to the GP 
). If you can afford to see someone privately, that may be a better option, as there is evidence that one of the most important factors in whether therapy works is the relationship between the therapist and the client.
I have OCD and your feelings sound very similar to mine, I don't like to think as it as abnormal as it's just how I cope with things. People assume OCD is just cleaning but it's not, I'll be compulsively worrying all the time
I was only diagnosed last year (I'm 18) because I have panic attacks (was diagnosed as anxiety for 6 years previous) often and keep stuff in certain places otherwise I'll be scared I'll have a bad day or something will go wrong
I haven't had any CBT or SSRI drugs because Im scared it will make me worse, so I'm interested in hearing if any treatment makes you feel better 
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