To not know how to stop feeling shit about myself?

(5 Posts)
FedupofbeingtoldIcantusemyname Tue 04-Oct-16 16:38:25

I'm just so sick of feeling shit about the way I look.

I have a skin condition (rosecea? I think thats how its spelt?) that makes my face red/pink all the time, and gives my face an awful texture with bumps and tiny spots. It makes me so depressed because no matter how much make up I wear my face never doesn't look red and awful, and its hard to cover up your face. I can't afford any of the really good specialist cover up stuff and nothing the GP has given me has helped. On the really bad days I don't want to go out because of it. I'm so jealous of other girls with good skin.

What really really gets me down though is my body. I'm not absolutely massive, around a size 16, but I feel it. I have some scarring on my stomach area that has given me a disgusting 'apron' of flab that I can't get rid of, and I've lost some weight after being bigger so I have loose skin on my belly which makes this look even worse. When I exercise I can feel it wobbling around and I'm terrified of my top accidentally rolling up and it being exposed to the world. I hate seeing myself naked in the mirror and often cry about it. I just feel like even if I lose more weight it won't go away and I will have it for life. Its so frustrating because I actually feel like the rest of my body isn't that bad but I just hate my belly so much and I can't afford a tummy tuck sad

Aibu to want to get over this but not know how? I just dream of the day when I could look normal and do/wear what I want and be happy with myself but I can't see that ever happening while I look like I do. Has anyone else ever had this loose skin/scarring issue and successfully gotten rid of it without surgery?

Tarttlet Tue 04-Oct-16 16:59:58

Do you think CBT might help? It obviously wouldn't affect you physically, but it might help you change the way you think about your body.

FedupofbeingtoldIcantusemyname Tue 04-Oct-16 17:03:49

I just want to look normal sad

Just want to look and feel like a normal person with a normal person's body and not feel like some red faced, saggy stomached deformed freak who looks like an old lady in my mid thirties.

FedupofbeingtoldIcantusemyname Tue 04-Oct-16 17:06:49

I guess it would help to know if anyone else has successfully managed to sort out the same issues I have, it might give me some hope that things could be different in the future rather than thinking I'm going to be stuck this way forever sad

AliceInHinterland Tue 04-Oct-16 17:18:49

Have you seen this thread here.
I thought it sounded interesting.

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