Today a coworker asked me nicely "Are you excited?" and I just blanked. I don't know if I am or not. I'm not enjoying my pregnancy very much, I'm 22 weeks in and I haven't really felt any better. I am happy to be a parent, but it wasn't planned and I don't particularly get excited about babies. I know that I always wanted a family and in the abstract I am glad that I will get to be a mother.
Then she said in a worried tone (I guess my face looked pretty odd) "Aren't you looking forward to meeting the baby?"
And I didn't know that either....! I suppose I must be! Surely anyone would! But I guess it doesn't feel real... it's starting to feel a little more real now, with the kicks and everything, but I don't think I'm actually looking forward to labor etc.
I must have reacted really oddly. She seemed odd/concerned all day and couldn't seem to believe I wasn't really excited to go shopping for the baby stuff, or picking out names, or just getting hyped in general. She's more excited than I am... I wish I was that excited, I just feel ill!
But I've mostly been worried and ill, I guess I forgot to be excited... and I guess that must be a little weird for people. The first trimester was so awful that I just wanted to be DONE, I think I'm pretty proud of myself for still being pregnant and going into work, let alone being happy and excited about it!
But if I'm being unreasonable, I'll genuinely try to shake off this feeling and start trying to get into it. Sometimes I feel like this around Christmas etc., everyone around me will seem really festive but I just don't get into the spirit until I start really trying.
... When do I start getting excited? Should I be already?
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
AIBU?
To not know how I feel about my pregnancy yet?
19 replies
Cynthesizer · 21/09/2016 21:53
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.