I'm not sure how to put this, but I'm feeling quite confused although it shouldn't be a big deal...There are much larger problems in the world.
Firstly, to clarify, I'm a sixth form student.
Basically, my dilemma is that I've always wanted to do a really competitive course (think medicine) and my GCSEs indicated I could do it. My school isn't used to capable people and pushed me into 6 AS levels and I've really struggled this year. Royally fucked up, in fact.
Only 2 count next year which are the 2 I'm dropping (maths and Spanish) but I'm now worried that means I'll have to declare my worst grades for the rest of my life. Anyway... I've recently been accepted to 2 summer school type things, one of which I got the only scholarship from everyone who applied to the UK (Summer School is held in another part of the world) and this has made my school erupt with joy. In in their newspaper on their website, all sorts but I can't help feeling that it's a little bit arrogant of them. When I applied I filled in the huge personal statement type form and they told me I shouldn't have done it without the assistance of our diabolical 'futures adviser' and that I'd never get it by myself. I was very happy but now I feel just overwhelming pressure to be accepted into university. After my AS grades I probably won't make it and I can feel the watching eyes of the whole school on me now. I'm their first ever applicant to this type of course. Sorry it was very very long and my typing is terrible.
AIBU to feel pressure over this and does it show I'm not suited to this type of course?
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Is it normal to feel like this
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Dogsandcats123 · 10/06/2016 08:02
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