I know the answer is probably yes. I appreciate there are people out there who have it a lot worse than me at the moment, I really do. I just need to vent I think.
Some of you may remember this thread of mine www.mumsnet.com/Talk/am_i_being_unreasonable/2567812-WIBU-to-quit-my-job?pg=1 a couple of months ago.
(In a nutshell, I started a new job and it was absolutely horrendous. From day 1 I was bullied, I never got shown or given any work and so after a month I quit)
After quitting I was obviously really worried that I wouldn't get another job and it would look really bad on my CV (But felt I had to include it on my CV as otherwise it would just look like I left my previous job for...nothing?)
I temped for a few weeks doing various things and then I got offered 2 job opportunities. One was permanent and quite good money, working for a small, family business. However I didn't get a very good feeling from the company, it was an hour and 15 mins commute each way every day and they wanted me in the office 7.30-5.30 every day. The other was meant to be a temp role but the interview went really well and they liked me and said I'd be perfect for 2 new permanant roles that they were getting signed off. The interviewer (my manager) assured me both roles would meet my salary expectations I met the team and really liked them, it is only a 20 minute commute and 9-5 hours so I decided to take that one.
I started a month ago, the people really are lovely and we have a good laugh. It's been really slow getting going work wise but the bits I have been doing I have enjoyed. Anyway, said roles did get signed off and I applied for both of them and was to be interviewed for both in one interview but at interview stage I decided I would only go for one of the roles as after some thought, I felt I didn't have enough experience for the other.
It went well, they offered me the job and I was over the moon as I do really like the company....until they talked salary. It was 7k less than we discussed, which just isn't viable for me at the moment. I said this, they apologised and said they didn't realise i'd been promised X salary, but the salary for that role was that amount and they couldn't higher it. They said that the salary for the role I decided not to interview for would match my salary requirements but that yes, really, I needed a year or 2's experience in my current role before I could seriously be considered.
So that is that and I am back to square one really. I am still there and still mostly enjoying it but I am really struggling to live on my temp salary (which is a 7k pay drop from my last salary) My boyfriend is having to sub me at the moment which isn't ideal.
I am applying for jobs left, right and centre but having no luck. I have debt I am trying to pay off, trying to pay for food and bills (though thankfully my DP has taken over the bills for now, but I hate that he has to) I feel like I'm just stuck at the moment. I want to plan my future but I don't even know what I'll be earning next month let alone anything else.
I'm nearly 30 and want to get married, there is no way my DP would consider getting engaged until I've got my work situation sorted which I understand, but I have no idea when that will be. Up until Feb I have always been in a secure, permanent (well as secure and perm as any job can be at the moment) job, and just getting on with life. Now I just feel like a complete loser. All my friends are doctors, lawyers, nurses, teachers. They actually have CAREERS whereas I am just stuck doing dead end admin jobs that bore me to tears.
Every job I see that interests me I am not qualified for, every job that I am qualified for, the salary is stupidly low and I just can't seem to summon up any interest in it. (I think I just got lucky the last 6 or so years as the two companies that I worked for were in sectors that pay quite well, despite the job) I have no money to retrain, debt I need to clear and bills that need to be paid
I think my CV looks a bit dodgy now due to having a 4 week job on there and now a temp job. At nearly 30, temping doesn't look that impressive does it.
Perhaps I just need to suck it up and accept i'm not going to be able to earn the same salary that I have earnt previously and get a bar job or something to supplement the rest, but the thought of doing that depresses me too. I just want a career. I am regretting so many life choices at the moment, I never should have gone to uni, it's done my no good apart from land me in shed loads of debt. I'm never going to use my degree.
I feel like I should be using this time as an 'opportunity' to start my own business, but I have no funds to do so and no idea what I would do anyway.
Sorry for the woe is me post, I'm just feeling really despondent today. Seems like everyone else has their shit together and I'm just on the road to nowhere.
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Snowey101 · 26/04/2016 13:25
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