To be excited regardless!

[MsFiestyPants]

32+ 3 with DC3 who is DD1, DS2s birth was horrid had PTSD as a result and MH issues however on reflection MH issues were present a LONG time, and this was a catalyst to meds etc so, trying to se the positives it helped long term.

I Have GDM so extra scans and what not generally but this time was going to be my VBAC finally feel happy enough to try BF, have support of my awesome dpula, and this baby is with my new DP rather than my abusive XH, following a MC so is my rainbow.

At 26 week scan havjng had no worries up to then, all hell breaks loose. Baby has oligohydraminous (low fluid) and query IUGR as v small. Told to prepare for very early delivery and all that it entails... obviously shitting self.

However with careful monitoring, input from an amazing consultant, SOM intervention to build a good rapport with anaesthetist etc, weve gotten to now. No signs of immenent delivery, likely to be around 34 + 4 to 35 plus. So leaps and bounds from where we were.

DD is wiggly, and feels strong however I know she will still be small, Est 2lb12oz at scan two weeks ago so id hope over 3lb now. I Know she may still need help and have issues..I know we may still have a NICU stay ahead

Despite this.. im still excited! I cant wait to hold her feed her love her... is that reckless? In my heart im hopeful she will feed well straight away and we will just have like a week in SCBU.

AIBU to be so hopeful? Am I setting myself up for a huge fall? Any experiences welcome, I just worry my hope will mean I struggle when she is born.

[Iliveinalighthousewiththeghost]

Aww of course you're not being unreasonable. I hope all works out. X

[WhyCantIuseTheNameIWant]

No advice, but I hope it goes well for you.

35 weeks is a good chance of survival. In the 90% if I remember ?

The only people who can give advice will be your doctors.

[rattling]

SCBU usually start by suggesting you expect your baby to get to go home when she is close to term ( about 38 week gestation), so only a week in may be optimistic. If she's very small it may be more difficult to BF at the start - my smaller twin (32 weeker, 4lb at birth) I had to feed with expressed milk for 6 weeks till his latch was bigger. After that I was able to breastfeed (mixed fed, but that was a different issue for me - 2 babies, not much milk)

So I'd say wait and see how it goes. But also that even if it doesn't start out perfectly, it will probably all be fine very soon. 35 weeks is brilliant after all you've been through.

[MsFiestyPants]

Thanks all, after 2 'normal' DS' the thought of being without her by my side is weird.
Survival is pretty much 98% plus from what weve been advised, Its just so much of an unknown factor with infections etc, but all signs so far are positive, she is literally 'just' small.
I just wondered if anyone else had experienced thr IUGR label then had it removed to small for gestational age?
DD is growing on a traceable curve so theyve said unlikely to be IUGR as she hasnt just stopped?

I have a scan with my consultant tues so maybe I can get some firm answers then.

[MsFiestyPants]

rattling cross post, id be really interested to hear about time on special care / NICU as I dont know anyone who has been there?
Im happy to express and whatnot although know nothing really about it