[Have posted in chat but posting here for traffic]
So, finally I have plucked up the courage to go to my GP and tell him I need help. That I am not me anymore. I'm angry at the world for no reason, take everything as a critism and feel like I'm fighting the world. I love my son but I dont feel like I love him enough. I havent got that burst of love for him and there are days I'd give anything to be on my own. I have no desire to do anything. I go to work because I have to, not because I want to. I have grown a sense of not giving a fuck about things that really matter - like today, my appointment is at 1.50 but am tempted to just go home afterwards - and making the smallest things into a huge incident - like being in tears because I want DH to drive us to the airport in June and he said he's prefer to go on the train.
I just dont know what to say. I know how I feel but how do I tell someone. I only told my husband yesterday that I feel lost and not me anymore.
I already suffer from depression but this I am going through now has changed. I am constantly wound up and cross, losing interest in stuff, feel alone, numb, lost, taking things the completely wrong way then they were meant (FIL made a harmless joke yesterday which I took as a criticism of my parenting skills and caused huge tension and a row for me and DH which resulted in him pretty much saying if I carry on as I am I'm likely to lose him, my job etc).
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cjt110 · 14/03/2016 09:58
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