I'm sorry if I insult or upset anyone as this could possibly be a trigger for anyone with a child with a disability but I just really need someone to tell me I'm ridiculous and to woman up.
DS is 2 and a half and he has recently been diagnosed with ASD, the specialist who diagnosed DS says he portrays his symptoms quite strongly and she thinks he will always be a bit behind and possibly have a learning disability when he is older. He is behind in several milestones and he hasn't yet mastered speaking as communication and understanding is his main issue as well as some motor skill issues. He can't connect 'mama' or 'dada' to DH and I aswell, he can't walk unaided but he can crawl and he cannot point or wave, he has very little eye contact, he doesn't show affection or crave it but he does smile at DH or myself, he shows no interest in other children or playing in general just his own way which is usually mouthing or banging things.
We brought him to his normal soft play area and it was a little boy's first birthday so lots of younger children for DS to be around. The birthday day boy kept running around smiling, interacting, playing, hugging, laughing with his parents and other children while DS has no interest.
It is my fault I feel this way as I had this pre planned image in my head when I was pregnant and now it's gone but make no mistake I love my DS to pieces, he is our first baby but I couldn't help but get upset at all these other seemingly normal children. It is so hard sometimes as it just feels like DS is so detached from the world around him and us and I worry that he will never catch up with his peers. I know I probably am BU but I just feel so rotten and I know it is early days for him but I feel so bad watching these other children no matter how selfish it makes me feel.
AIBU?
To feel jealous of other children and just want to cry?
RumplestiltskinMissGold · 27/02/2016 15:31
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