I have name changed because I am ashamed. I know this is not the right place but I am desperate and need the traffic and I need your help.
I cannot cope with dd anymore (13)
She has some mild SEN including sensory issues and I do think she probably has aspergers but we are getting no where with that, she was a lovely girl until secondary but she is now causing me to feel like I am losing my mind, I have had chest pains recently too but I am stressed out of my mind.
She is abusive, she hits me, she kicks me, she pushes me, she throws stuff at the walls, she has banged a door on my arm, scratched me, held the door so I cannot get out of the room. She tells me I have brought the abuse on my self, that I have caused it. She tries to cause a drama every night, she tells me to shut my mouth, she ignores me, if I try and talk to her calmly she tells me I am annoying, stupid, an idiot, pathetic, covers her ears, pretends she is asleep, sings la la la or says I am shouting at her when I am not even shouting.
If she has done anything wrong and is being told off she explodes and starts the guilt trip, you don't love me, you don't care about me, you don't want me, you want rid of me, you care about no one but yourself, I might as well go in care.
She doesn't go out so grounding doesn't make a difference.
She doesn't give a damn if I remove items such as her xbox. She calls me pathetic, selfish and a tight mess but forgets after a day or two about the removed item.
We are waiting for camhs (3 months and counting)
She is fine at school although struggles, she uses an sen room and is well supported. There is no bullying.
I am frightened as she gets bigger , she is already almost bigger than me, she is going to do real damage and hurt me properly.
I am a lone parent with little support other than elderly parents. Her father is useless despite the fact we had been married a decade when she was born.
I am ashamed to say although I have never smacked I have done so twice this month, I am horrified at that but I have just reached the end of the line with her and reacted to her hurting me yet again (which doesn't make it any better I know). I am ashamed I have told her she is abusive. I held her shoulders to stop her destroying my house in temper and now apparently I attacked her by doing so.
I am sick of being abused and if I am honest I am scared I am going to either end up completely having a breakdown or worse losing my temper with her.
I just want to walk out of the door and never come back, this is no life and I do not want to live it anymore.
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stressedmind · 27/02/2016 07:24
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