Hi, long time lurker but first time poster, etc! I was hoping to gain some opinion on something that is messing with my head! It might end up being quite long so I apologise, I just didn't want to leave something important out.
Basically, I have two younger sisters (twins, though that may be irrelevant, I'll call one E, and the other C) and throughout our lives, my father has ensured that none of us felt good enough. We've all been told that we're ugly, fat, stupid and it's been made clear that he doesn't deem us good enough. Alongside this, there have been aspects of violence. Started out as smacks when we were younger but as we grew, and gained a voice and an opinion, it escalated further. I was threatened with a knife for saying that I didn't want to go to a wedding while C was threatened with his fists for other offences. Throughout this, my mother has always stuck up for him, blaming his childhood for his lack of fatherly love for us and, generally, playing us off against each other, slagging him off to us when she'd had an argument with him and vice versa.
This began to escalate further when E gained a boyfriend and my parents disliked him. After she moved out with him, my other sister and I had an argument with my mother over her treatment of E. This dragged on for 2 weeks with my mother ignoring both of us. It culminated in a fight between the four of us, which ended when my father shoved me repeatedly across a room before kicking the door at me before hitting and kicking C. After that, C and I left, stayed at E's for 3 weeks before finding a flat to rent and moving in together.
During this time, C and I got back in contact with my mother and had a somewhat strained relationship. Another argument ensued and my mother tole us that we were lying about what had happened on the night that we moved out. After this, we apologised for what we had said but heard nothing back so remained NC for 6 months.
We've not got back in contact with her, but things remain the same. My mother is keen to try and force us into a relationship with my father, despite being told that we're not interested in that and that we feel better for it. The final straw has come today, after swapping Christmas gifts, upon which we were told that our usual gifts have been halved as my father doesn't wish to give anything to us as we have not treated him like a father. The gifts are by the by. I just feel that this is a petty action, designed to force us into doing something that we don't wish to do. Regardless of this, any meeting with our mother results in days of hurt and upset as she continues to treat us like children and never acknowledge the events of the past year.
So, finally, I guess C and I have decided that, in order to protect ourselves, we need to go NC and focus on our lives and rebuilding our self esteem. Is this unreasonable of us?
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LucyOfTheLake · 20/12/2015 21:12
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